I keep standing six feet one

Love is...xkcd?

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 06:22:23 GMT

So because I've been kind of very upset at Sam lately, I decided that I needed a reminder of why I'm hopelessly enamored with him.

From June 19th:
supermoo501 (12:34:34 AM): wait
supermoo501 (12:34:41 AM): before theres any more real converstation
supermoo501 (12:34:52 AM): have you seen the xkcd from like a week ago
supermoo501 (12:35:01 AM): look at 435 right now
supermoo501 (12:35:06 AM): its fucking gorgeous
supermoo501 (12:35:09 AM): i love it
supermoo501 (12:35:16 AM): LOVE IT
supermoo501 (12:35:24 AM): LOOK AND ANSWER BACK SOON
supermoo501 (12:35:29 AM): CUZ IMA KEEP TYPING
supermoo501 (12:35:35 AM): TILL YOU AKWOLEDGE IT

"The Secret Life of Bees" by Sue Monk Kidd

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 18:39:37 GMT

Rebecca Lee and I are actually the same person.

"I realized it for the first time in my life: there is nothing but mystery in the world, how it hides behind the fabric of our poor, browbeat days, shining brightly, and we don't even know it."

"Maybe it was a simple matter of being attracted to what I couldn't have. Or maybe desire kicked in when it pleased without noticing the rules we lived and died by."

"I laid my head on his shoulder and wondered how he could stand me. In one short morning I had exhibited insane laughter, hidden lust, pissy behavior, self-pity, and hysterical crying. If I'd been trying to show him my worst sides, I could not have done a better job than this."

"The whole time we worked, I marveled at how mixed up people got when it came to love. I myself, for instance. It seemed like I was now thinking of Zach forty minutes out of every hour, Zach, who was an impossibility. That's what I told myself give hundred times: impossibility. I can tell you this much: the word impossibility is a great big log thrown on the fires of love."

"'I was gonna say, The problem is they know what matters, but they don't choose it. You know how hard that is, Lily?...The hardest thing on earth is choosing what matters.'"

"'I'll write this all down for you,' I said. 'I'll put it in a story.' I don't know if that's what he wanted to ask me, but it's something everybody wants--for someone to see the hurt done to them and set it down like it matters."

"Where had I been that I didn't know about imaginary friends? I could see the point of it. How a lost part of yourself steps out and reminds you who you could be with a little work."

"'Every person on the face of the earth makes mistakes, Lily. Every last one. We're all so human....There is nothing perfect....There is only life.'"

"Drifting off to sleep, I thought about her. How nobody is perfect. How you just have to close your eyes and breathe out and let the puzzle of the human heart be what it is."

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 17:27:41 GMT

I'm out of high school.

I'm a college student.

...

Fuck.

Stupid little bitch

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 11:02:01 GMT

My neck looks and feels like its been mauled by some sort of rabid little bitch. I just might have to kick his ass.

And the worse part is, I'm seeing Leal today.

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 05:14:10 GMT

PENIS.

ARRGGGHHHHHH

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 23:18:49 GMT

SEVEN DAYS!

A new perspective on the Mac/Window debate

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 01:56:05 GMT

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 23:32:25 GMT

.____________________________________________________.

._______________________________________________________________.

The college process has turned me into a Kirby.

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 08:30:14 GMT

raspberrylust929 (3:28:00 AM): there are worse emo kids
raspberrylust929 (3:28:05 AM): i go to school with them -___-
DarkDestinyLight (3:27:32 AM): lulz
DarkDestinyLight (3:27:36 AM): hunter community college
raspberrylust929 (3:28:23 AM): we're not a community college ~sob~
raspberrylust929 (3:28:29 AM): we are a senior college T_T
raspberrylust929 (3:28:35 AM): with a 4yr program T_T
raspberrylust929 (3:28:41 AM): and and T_T
DarkDestinyLight (3:28:08 AM): of course Val
DarkDestinyLight (3:28:10 AM): *pat pat*
raspberrylust929 (3:28:56 AM): ~sobs under covers~

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 21:01:27 GMT

Bob Dylan. ♥

Thirteen Ways of Looking at Contentment

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 23:31:13 GMT

It seems like whenever I have a particularly bad day, I have a fairly good one the next day. Oh life.

One. The intimacy of noses touching
Two. Finally asking what you've always meant to ask, and getting it
Three. Things being easier than you expected them to be
Four. Support from places you'd never expect
Five. Knowing you did good
Six. Walks around the city in good weather
Seven. Your iPod on a really good shuffle
Eight. Ms. Curtis and Mr. Roundy :D
Nine. Creating something beautiful
Ten. Reading lyrical poetry while listening to well-written songs on an almost-empty train
Eleven. The softness of skin
Twelve. Well-applied eyeliner
Thirteen. Knowing that everything will be okay in the end, whenever that may be

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 03:13:35 GMT

I HATE doing damage control. =/

EDIT:

False alarm. Yay.

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 05:29:30 GMT

Denise:
I think somebody brilliant should write a postmodern sequel to A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man in which Stephen is possessed by Freakazoid

Shorty:
........
Denise no

Denise:
Denise YES

Shorty:
Denise NO

Denise:
Denise YESSSSS

Shorty:
.........No.

Denise:
..............................yar.

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 06:12:53 GMT

Shorty:
http://kittytoxin.deviantart.com/art/Geek-Love-59473416
soooo attractive
<3

johnlukehubbard:
You know who else is freaking attractive?
You ;)
No, I'm sorry that was a cheap shot

>_> And that is why I keep Luke around. *is a terrible person*

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 04:15:04 GMT

Let it be forever know that Alex Kazenoff and Rebecca Lee are two of the best people ever and I love love love love LOVE them both to death.

Thank you for your amazing comments and I know we don't really talk a lot but you guys really are very important to me, and your comments meant a lot to me. ♥

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 02:36:03 GMT

Forget my list of 8 private collges.

I'm following Rachel to college.

A lesson in precalc, and the nature of sexes

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 02:31:33 GMT

Okay math-dorking time!

Actually, no, just calc-teacher-dorking time! We're reviewing functions and relations (because half the geniuses in my calc class are morons. *coughs*) and Mr. Storer who is ERIC FOREMAN from That 70's Show (I'm totally serious; Eric in the show even goes off to become a teacher :P) gave us this little anecdote to help us remember the difference.

So a relation is just a relationship between two sets of data. Like y = x, a^2 = -b+, etc, etc. An x value in a relation can have as many y values as it wants.

A function is a relation, but for every x value there one and exactly one y value.

All functions are relations, but not all relations for functions.

So this is a relation:

x | y
1 | 5, 6, 7
2 | 6
3 | 6, 7

This is a function:

x | y
1 | 4
2 | 5
3 | 6

So here's how you remember the difference:

Let's assume that x's are males, and y's are females.

Now, a y value can have as many corresponding x values as she wants, because women are clever and sly and subtle like that. So she can function with juggling more than one guy. So this is a function:

x | y
1 | 4
2 | 4
3 | 4

However, because guys are inherently less intelligent than those of the fairer sex, guys can't have two women and keep it a secret. So what does that make him?

A PLAYA!

And as everybody knows, a PLAYA can't FUNCTION in a RELATIONship!

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I LOVE MATH! AND MR. STORER!

...And I swear I'm only using the word playa because he used it and it makes the anecdote that much funnier.

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 05:50:11 GMT

Oof.

On writing and books

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 02:28:30 GMT

Butler is devoted to something he loosely calls “method writing.” He believes that too many writers intellectualize their writing but never tap the deep emotions that create great art, and that the practice has led to an abundance of polished, bloodless prose. “Creative-writing students, who are typically trained almost exclusively in craft and technique, come to me knowing the second through the tenth things about being an artist,” Butler says. “But they don’t know the first thing about it.” In his workshop, students first struggle to find what Butler says is a primary element of a story: the yearning of the character. “Many don’t get it by the end of the workshop. Some will get it later. But some will never get it,” he says. “Not everyone is destined to be an artist.”

- Edward J. Delaney, "Where Great Writers Are Made"

Writing for the advancement of art and literature, or writing for the pleasure and enjoyment of the readers? And when I say for the pleasure and enjoyment of the readers, I don't mean the shit that Dan Brown and Rowling churn out. We have things by writers like Morrison and Joyce that make us go "WTF *HEADSPIN* @__@ X__x", and then we have writers like Gaiman and Austen, who, while are amazingly talented writers, write for the story and for the way language is put together, and not necessarily for the GREAT LITERARY REFERENCES AND SYMBOLISM AND STUFF THAT MAKES YOU CRY INSIDE. (Not that I'm saying Austen and Gaiman don't have symbolism in their works, it's just much more subtle and not as necessary for the overall enjoyment of piece.)

I don't know. I feel like that applies much more to poetry than it does to prose, because at least with prose, you actually need a somewhat coherent story. (Ignoring stream-of-consciousness novels like Please Don't Kill the Freshman and Only Revolutions because while those things are AMAZING and BRILLIANT and GORGEOUS I put them down after a few chapters cause it drove me crazy. I can only take so much abstract stuff before I need to come back to reality.)

This NYU grad student who came into the Writing Institute to teach the other day said something along the lines of how you have those pretentious writers who win Nobel Prizes about things that nobody understands and in 20 years, nobody will understand, and then we have poetry that's more readable, and that really sticks with people because of the meter and because they can really relate to the poem.

I really do prefer poems are are more simplistic that I can understand to poems that ridiculously complicated and make my head spin. The poems that are complicated and make my head spin are beautiful and wonderful and I'm absolutely in love with them (See "Baked Alaska", by Matthea Harvey), but in the end, it's going to be this poem that sticks to me and actually means something to me, and it's going to be that poem that I'm going to keep coming back to, and it's going to be that poem that I'll turn to when I'm depressed. (And did turn to actually. I was depressed and sitting in Barnes and Noble the other day, and I just sat there reread that poem over and over.) It's going to be "My Father's Love Letters" that I swoon over, rather than anything by like, Dickens or Wallace. Not because they're not brilliant, but because I feel like I'm not brilliant enough to understand it, and because it doesn't touch me as much as something I understand would. I absolutely absolutely love The Great Gatsby with all my heart, because I can understand it. I don't understand Thirteen Ways of Looking at a Blackbird (despite loving it), and I'm just not going to come back to it for comfort the way I am going to come back to that-one-poem-by-Linda-Gregg-whose-title-I-keep-forgetting.

Even with cummings, my favorite poem by him is may i feel said he which is much more simple than his usual stuff, because of the way it sounds and the meanings that I derive from such a seemingly simple poem. I don't know. Maybe I just don't get English and literature as much as I want to.

And, I just kind of rambled there. Wow. Oops. Let's get back to the original topic: I'm curious as to what you guys think about writing as an art versus writing for enjoyment of the people?

....Also, I think we should take this time to absolutely "SQUEE" (also, some of you may need to call me to get the full effect of that "SQUEE"-ing noise I just typed. Or ask Ben/Zach/Sherwin/Maia/Dorian. Red trees go SQUEE!) over Matthrew Rohrer. This is a beautiful poem. And "SQUEE" over this reading of My Father's Love Letters. And "SQUEE" over Night Music by Linda Gregg even though I can't find an online version of it. It's really pretty though and everyone should read it.

And as long as I'm throwing poems at people, this poem on Vietnam is pretty good too.

Sun, 20 May 2007 21:47:14 GMT

I started reading some of Ben's early LJ entries but got really bored and stopped. It was kinda cute reading the stuff Ben wrote when he was my age, but mostly boring and/or obnoxious. ;_; Ben didn't know how to use the enter key.

But I'm glad that Ben and I aren't the same age, and I'm glad that I didn't start dating him when he was in high school/earlier/etc, etc. I had an entry all typed up about, but then I deleted it cause what I wrote didn't really reflect what I was trying to say.

I guess what I was trying to say is that Ben and I had a lot of growing up to do from the time we first met before we...erm...were right for each other? God knows I changed a lot throughout 10th grade, and over the summer, and in a way, Ben was a result of that change. I needed to grow up before I was the type of person Ben even looked at, and I'm glad that I did grow up, and glad that things turn out the way they did.

Life is kind of funny. You think it blows, and then you sort of sit back, look around, and realize that you know what? It's kind of really great.

...Oh hey look, birds are chirping outside my window. >__> *coughs*

Wed, 16 May 2007 05:04:33 GMT

THINGS I NEED TO DO:

Junior Year:
physics:
-quest [6/1]
-2 more units
-final

english:
-Invisible Man creative project (wtffffff)
-June Project [6/11]
-Hound Weinstein about my lost hw assignments >_<

ush:
-unit ix/x test [5/29]
-unit xi (and possibly xii...?)
-FINAL

psych:
-ch15 test & qqtps [5/21]
-ch16 test & qqrps [6/5]
-journal [End of May]
-research project...?

math:
-test on limits [5/25]
-2 more units
-FINAL

misc:
-SATII mathiic [6/2]
-SATII lit [6/2]
-pseudo-absence note
-give back APChem textbook
-give back astronomy textbook
-give back Fitzgerald book

For the Summer:
-VOLUNTEER
-INTERNSHIP
-Look for a job
-NYU poetry workshop
-Find a class -_-;;

For People:
-Give Sharon back her stuff
-Give Ben back his stuff
-Give Rachel back (surprise surprise) her stuff >.>;;
-Return harvard people's stuff (In case you haven't noticed, I have a bit of a klepto problem)
-Rachel's gifts
-Ben's gifts
-Yaffa's gift
-Zach's gift
-Alex's gift
-Rebecca's gift
-Quentin's gift
-graduation presents for seniors (Liming, Hallie, Jane, Caitlin, don't really talk to Yuri although I feel obligated to get her something anyway. And I feel like I'm missing some seniors.)
-OMG EMAIL RUSSIAN BOY. >_< I feel really bad about that, cause he's just cute and adorable and it's okay that he's a little stupid and tongue-in-cheek funny and I've been meaning to email him since the end of Feb
-email Rebecca Alex & Quentin telling them how much I miss and love them (okay, wtf firefox. Rebecca is spelt Rebecca, not Rebbecca, right? @_@)

For Myself:
-clean room
-buy a watch
-go see some fucking doctors already
-stop manifesting psychological stressors (life) into physiological ones (the cough). it's so early-20th-c-Freudian ~~Ben's my daddy!~~
-get back into the habit of reading/watching animanga and listening to jpop, cause i forgot how ridiculously fun it is
-write more

I've been kind of thinking about spending my summer writing a real paper on Fitzgerald, cause he kind of deserves it, but blah. I don't think I'm motivated enough, and really, wtf would I write it on?

And what would I do with it? I kind of want to give it to D'Amico to grade once I'm done because D'Amico loves Fitzgerald more than I do, but she's already so stressed out with work that I dont want to ask her to read my omg mediocre paper.

We'll see I suppose.

Incomplete Reading List For This Summer:

-This Side of Paradise
-The Beautiful and the Damned
-Sanctuary
-Fragile Things
-All of Sandman
-Cat's Cradle
-Emma
-Good Fairies of New York
-Sophie's World
-The Hours
-Julia Glass's latest novel
-Maurice
-that fantasy book I randomly brought
-A Long Way Down
-Tim O'Brien's stuff
-Veronica
-Flowers for Algernon
-The Woman Warrior
-Wuthering Heights
-Mirror Mirror
-I kind of want to read more of Toni Morrison's works, but in like, a masochistic kind of way
-Really really really want to read Gravity's Rainbow but I think its too intense for me (soooo not smart enough what)
-That book Rebecca was reading with the radio and the playwrights and aunt
-At Swim, Two Boys
-At Swim, Two Boys
-At Swim, Two Boys
-At Swim, Two Boys (yeah, I really, really REALLY need to read that book. It's like...the best contemporary novel in the world)

Re-Reading:
-Neverwhere
-Catcher in the Rye (I'm also morally obligated to read the rest of his stuff since he too was in love with Fitzgerald, but I kind of don't want to. >_>)
-Good Omens
-A Home at the End of the World
-Three Junes
-Wicked + Son of a Witch
-Hitchhiker's Guide series
-The Count of Monte Cristo
-that superman book Rachel has

Misc:
-Burn copies of The Sun Also Rises and then hold a Viking funeral Not identifying with Fitzgerald lalalalalalalala *burns Snows of Kilo

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 01:32:23 GMT

Hahaha, F. Scott Fitzgerald was such a DORKFACE ♥:

"F. Scott Fitzgerald and Ring Lardner are neighbors at Great, Neck, L.I. In the morning when the young author who glorified the flapper springs out of bed he sings through an open window:
'Oh the great Fitzgerlad is just out of bed. Just out of bed. Oh the great Fitzgerald!'
And soon across the space booms the voice of Lardner: 'The mighty Lardner prepareth to shave. Soap-suds and lather! Oh the beautiful sylph-like Lardner.'
Neighbors have been trying to mitigate the annoyance but to no avail. For Fitzgerald and Lardner continue their rhyming fooleries at intervals all during the day."
-Bits of New York Life, April 18th, 1923.

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 03:29:32 GMT

I just realized, as I was writing my Gatsby FLE, that I am Gatsby in a bubble. *thuds*

Kel: why r u gatsby?
me: He wanted nothing less of Daisy than that she should go to Tom and say: "i never loved you."
Kel: and...?
me: he gave Daisy everything; everything he did with his life, he did it for her
Daisy was essentially his purpose for living
Kel: so... how is this connected to u?
me: and he wanted her to be perfect
and for her to give as much of herself to him as he did to her
Kel: ...
still don't see connection

*thud*

Oh Sharon.

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 04:06:17 GMT

]
Well, technically this is a survey for '06, but I'm doing last 12 months cause I just found this and did a lot in the past new months. >:D
IN 2006 I:
[ ] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[ ] kissed someone new
[x] made out
[ ] made out in a car
[ ] kissed in the snow (IT HASN'T SNOWED YET. >__<)
[ ] kissed in the rain (Not yet, unless shower counts.)
[x] fell in love
[x] fell in love with a fool (wasnt love in either of the cases, but it sure did hurt.)
[x] had my heart broken
[ ] broke someone else's heart (dont think so)
[] had a stalker
[x] lost a friend
[x] had a good relationship with someone
[x] questioned my sexual orientation (Ish. Complication. Don't ask.)
[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant (was worried about that. but nope. :D)
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[x] did something I regret
[ ] lost my true love
[ ] lost faith in love for awhile
[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[ ] got a promotion
[ ] got a pay raise
[ ] changed jobs
[ ] lost my job
[ ] quit my job
[ ] dated a co-worker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[ ] got fired from my job
[ ] got straight A's
[x] failed a class ~~almost~~
[X] cut class
[ ] skipped school
[x] did something I was proud of
[x] proved myself an idiot
[x] embarrassed myself in front of the class
[ ] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[x] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[ ] ran a mile
[x] listened to music I couldnt stand
[ ] double dipped
[ ] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover (I...think? Can't remember. Although I guess sleeping over in Alex & Quentin's room count? Theoretically?)
[x] went to camp (Harvard is camp =P
[x] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried
[ ] laughed till I peed my pants
[x] flirted shamelessly
[ ] visited a foreign country
[x] visited a foreign state
[ ] cooked a disastrous meal
[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[ ] realized something new about myself
[ ] tried to gain weight
[ ] dyed my hair
[ ] came close to losing my life...
[ ] someone close to me died
[ ] went to a wild party
[x] drank alcohol
[x] drank alcohol underage
[ ] got drunk
[ ] got arrested
[x] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[ ] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new
[x] made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are (kind of.)
[x] lied to your parents
[x] snuck out
[x] got in trouble with police (>____________> Beeeeeeeeen...)
[ ] kissed in a pool
[x] kissed under the stars (Assuming there are stars in NYC.)
[ ] did an illegal drug
[x] went to a party
[x] had the time of your life
[x] danced
[x] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[ ] changed your sexual preference
[ ] swam in a pool
[ ] made a snowman
[ ] went snowboarding
[ ] went sledding
[x] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someones hand
[x] held someones hand that you care about
[ ] got wasted in a public place
[ ] got wasted in Mexico
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[x] gone on vacation
[x] gone on vacation with a friend (pffffft, Harvard totally = vacation with friends. =P)
[ ] driven a car
[x] played strip poker
[ ] danced in the rain
[ ] got in a car accident
[x] seen someone get in a car accident (:D)
[ ] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[x] had an amazing year
[x] missed someone
[ ] got hit by car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[x] got a new pet (HI BEN! ~~Alex is my pet bunny. :D ♥~~)
[x] enjoyed the year overall

All I want to do is to be close to you
All I want to do is to be next to you
All I want is you to give up all we had to be
I can't remember why I'm here
If you'd let me spend my life with you

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 03:08:44 GMT

dfiadgkdhkjadfh

ADVANCE PHYSICS IS SO COOL. It makes my head spin in SUCH A PRETTY PRETTY WAY.

....

Okay, for anybody who actually read and understood that:
So the hero can come out because he's pointing his engine inward and therefore...he can get out?
cause the engine going inward would be reversed to make it going outward?

kasldfjukdjgf

GODDAMN I WISH I UNDERSTOOD BASIC PHYSICS.